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Are You an Experiencer / Abductee?

50 common indicators of UFO encounters or contact by Extra Terrestrial &Inner Dimensional beings:
Many millions of people have had encounters with beings. Many of those people do not realize that they are having these experiences because of suppressed memories. Their awareness is limited to an occasional paranormal incident or dream that seems to confuse them more than anything else. Some people are not ready to know for sure, others feel a deep need to know if they are involved with the beings. If you are in the latter group, read on.

1. Have had unexplainable missing or lost time of one hour or more, or periods in my life?
2. Have been paralyzed in bed with a being in your room?
3. Have unusual scars or marks with no possible explanation on how you received them (small scoop indentation, straight line scar, triangular marks, scars in roof of mouth, in nose, behind or in ears, etc.)?
4. Have seen balls of light or flashes of light in your home or other locations?
5. Have a memory of flying through the air, by levitation or flying, or many dreams of flying?
6. Have a strong “marker memory” that will not go away (i.e.: an alien face, an examination, a needle, a table, a strange skinny baby, etc.)?
7. Have seen beams of light outside your home, or come into your room through a window?
8. Have had many dreams of UFOs, beams of light or alien beings?
9. Have had a shocking UFO sighting or multiple sightings in your life?
10. Have a strong sense of having a mission or important task to perform, sometime, without knowing where this compulsion is coming from?
11. For women only: Have had false pregnancy or missing fetus (pregnant, and then not)?
12. Have awoken in another place than where you went to sleep, or don’t remember ever going to sleep (i.e. waking up with your head at the foot of your bed, or in your car)?
13. Have had a dream of eyes such as animal eyes (like an owl or deer), or remember seeing an animal looking in at you or in your house?
14. Have strong reaction to pictures of ET’s/aliens. Either an aversion to or being drawn to?
15. Have inexplicably strong fears or phobias (i.e. heights, snakes, spiders, doctors, hospitals, certain sounds, bright lights, flying, or being alone)?
16. Do you or members of your family have Dyslexia, ADD, ADHD, ODD, Aspergers or Autism?
17. Have seen someone with you become paralyzed, motionless, frozen or acting like a zombie and doing things out of the norm?
18. Have a memory of having a special place with spiritual significance, when you were a youngster?
19. Have had someone in your life that claims to have witnessed a ship or alien near you or has witnessed you having been missing?
20. Have an interest in the subject of UFO sightings or aliens, perhaps compelled to read everything you can or watch videos, movies and all shows about this subject?
21. Have an extreme aversion towards the subject of UFO’s or aliens – don’t want to talk about it?
22. Have been suddenly compelled to drive or walk to an out of the way or unknown area?
23. Have the feeling of being watched much of the time, especially at night?
24. Have had dreams of passing through a closed window or solid wall?
25. Have seen a strange fog or haze that should not be there?
26. Have heard strange humming or pulsing sounds, and you could not identify the source?
27. Have had unusual nosebleeds at any time in your life. Or have awoken with a nosebleed?
28. Have had, at any time, blood or a strange stain on sheet or pillow, with no explanation of how it got there?
29. Have awoken with soreness in your genitals, which cannot be explained?
30. Have had back or neck problems, T-3 vertebrae out often, or awoken with an unusual stiffness in any part of the body?
31. Have had chronic sinusitis or nasal problems?
32. Have had electronics around you go haywire or oddly malfunction with no explanation (such as street lights going out as you walk under them, TV’s and radios affected as you move close, etc)?
33. Have seen a hooded figure in or near your home, especially next to your bed?
34. Have had frequent or sporadic ringing in your ears, especially in one ear?
35. Have an unusual fear of doctors or tend to avoid medical treatment?
36. Have insomnia or sleep disorders, which are puzzling to you. Wake up the same time often?
37. Have had dreams of doctors or medical procedures?
38. Have frequent or sporadic headaches, especially in the sinus, behind one eye, or in one ear?
39. Have had paranormal, ghost, or psychic experiences, elementals, faries, including intuition?
40. Have been prone to compulsive or addictive behavior?
41. Have channeled telepathic messages from extraterrestrials?
42. Have been afraid of your closet, now or as a child?
43. Have had sexual or relationship problems (such as an odd “feeling” that you must not become involved in a relationship because it would interfere with “something, or that you must be dominated in your sexual relationships.”)?
44. Have to sleep against the wall or must sleep with your bed against a wall?
45. Have a fear that you must be very vigilant or you will be taken away by “someone.”?
46. Have a difficult time trusting other people, especially authority figures?
47. Have had dreams of destruction or catastrophe?
48. Have the feeling that you are not supposed to talk about these things, or that you should not talk about them?
49. Have experienced many things in this list, and recall your children or parents speaking of similar experiences on occasion?

50. Did the encounter improve your health or cause it to decline? If so, how long did it take before the changes began to occur?

51.  Have you experienced the development of any forms of a sixth sense: empathy, telepathy, clairvoyance, psychometry?

52.  Did you notice in your dream’s unusual smells? If so, please describe the scent.?

53.  Did you notice in your dreams any type of writing anywhere? If yes, please describe it.

54.  Have you had bright lights associated with your dream experience or was it otherwise dimly lit?In these dreams did they try to communicate with you? If so, how? Such as verbally with words, a telepathic type of communication, with images, etc?

55.  Do you have phobias such as heights, cloister phobic, agora phobic, motion sickness, spiders & snakes?

56.  You have demonstrated the capacity to summon one or more Star Visitors or their spacecraft (UFO) successfully, and they later show up as requested?

57.  If you could live your life and had control over your experience(e), would you want the “normal life” or would you not change a thing? 

58.  Have many of these traits but can't remember anything about an abduction or alien encounter?

59.  Do you speak, write, and understand galactic languages?

60.  Have experienced many things in this list, and recall your children or parents speaking of similar experiences on occasion?

but you don't have memories of experiences?

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  1. Do you feel like you are part of the hybridization programs?

  2. Have you had miscarriages, How many? Did you have a DNC?

  3. What kind of implantation procedures did you have? What are some of the tools you saw?

  4. Do you know what the extraction process is? If so explain?

  5. Do you have memory of any chemicals or medications utilized in these procedures?

  6. What is the environment you were in during these procedures and the type of experience you had?

  7. What are the most common species being seen in these experiences?

  8. Was your experience a pleasant experience or not so pleasant experience?

  9. Did these procedures cause you physical side effects?

  10. What age were you when the hybrid program began?

  11. Do you have any kind of symptoms telling you when you have been inseminated?  Such as sore or crusty naval? Pain in the uterus?

  12. At the time of the pregnancy were you sexually active? Or non-sexually active?

  13. Does the menstruation change for a woman in the hybridization program? what are some of the-side effects?

  14. What is the difference between the benevolent experiences when it comes to the physical side effects?

  15. Have you had a child presentation? Possibly a dream of babies, child, or children?

  16. Are you married or divorced? 

  17. Is your significant partner or husband supportive in your hybrid experiences?

  18. Do you have children?

  19. Are you able to have children?

  20.  Did you have children post contact?

  21. You have rashes or scaly spots on your body that doctors say are rare or unseen or they are unable to diagnose?

  22. You develop sebaceous cysts, moles, and other odd skin lesions?

  23. What is your blood type?

  24. What are your medical conditions? 

  25. Is activity still occurring?

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This list is not an absolute means of determining if you have had these types of experiences and there may be many other explanations for these occurrences. If many of these questions apply to you, please see a qualified researcher or therapist. No name is necessary; this is an anonymous questionnaire. You may however email if you desire more information or wish to share your results.



There are two types of MILAB abductions the first is to be taking into DUMBs to

question you and find out about your ET experiences. The other type of MILAB & MK-Ultra  

abduction is to interrogate you and to program you to be a unwilling spy.   This experience

often causes you to feel like you have vague memories of these experiences. These memories

can come back to you through your dreams or flash backs.  Which one are you?



  1. Do you have psi (psychic) abilities? (I.e. do you astral travel (OBE), remote view, perform psycho kinesis (move mater with the mind), or mediumship and telepathy (mind reading)?)

  2. Have you had dreams of apparatus put on your head for electric shock?

  3. Do you have memories waking up from sleep as a child, or an adult one day, feeling like you lost time and have had trouble remember things you should know? Have no memories of some of your childhood?  But have flashes of another possible life?

  4. Have you had dreams of being locked into small box or coffin?

  5. As a child or an adult, have you seen or have a knowing that you have been put in tanks of liquid? 

  6. You have dreams of having friends tortured or killed in front of you?

  7. Have you ever seen human military space vehicles or spacecraft? Did you travel in any?

  8. Have you had dreams that you were put in cages? Or saw others in cages?

  9. Have you had dreams you were put in tiny dark cell or room almost like a closet with just a cot?

  10. Have you had dreams of being a military soldier?  Or dreams of being in uniforms running and training with a military guns and packs on your back?

  11. Have you ever seen human uniforms (especially military) during your abductions? If so, what insignia were on them?

  12. Have you been taken to an underground facility or off this planet by aliens or by humans? 

  13. In your abduction memories, have you had any forms of intimidation from humans like: Verbal warnings, threats to you or your family's life or safety, physical abuse, or been beat-up or roughed-up?

  14. During an abduction, have human doctors performed any medical procedures?

  15. As a child have you been taking out of school and tested?

  16. Do you have large spans of days, weeks, months or even years you don’t remember?

  17.  Have you been in small grey or room that has a mirror? Did you feel watched?

  18. Do you have dreams or memories of being in tortured with spiders and snakes and or snakes used in rituals?

19. Have people ever interrogated and tortured you with electric shock? Have you had dreams of apparatus or bands put on your head for electric shock?
20. Have you been strapped in a trip chair (much like a dentist chair)? After being put in the chair are you forced to look at images on a screen in front of you?
21. Do you know what the term Pleasure verse pain and what that means?

22.  In relation to your abductions, have you had any forms of the following harassment: Black helicopters, telephone interruption/noises, calls at odd hours of the night, mail tampered with or missing, email tampered with, being followed, being outright approached, or had run-ins or confrontations with military or govt. types?

23. Have you been giving scopolamine or other truth injections?  To cause you to do things beyond your on will and then had amnesia?

24.  Have cattle prods or other shock wands been used on you to comply
25. Have you seen human military weapons with alien technology or used it during an abduction?
26. Have you had dreams of being used as a beta sex slave?

27. Have you had dreams or memories of being used in ritual sexual or witnessed ritual sacrifices?
28. Do you feel you’ve been “remote influenced” (thoughts not your own) to cause harm to yourself or to    harm someone else?
29. Do you currently, or have you ever, lived near or on a military base or facility?
30. Have you been used to as a currier or messenger and had a photogenic memory?

31. Have you ever had experiences with Men-In-Black?

32. Have you been abducted by military personnel without any aliens being present?

33. Did the aliens or the military instruct you in their technology or show you how it works? (I.e., have you seen propulsion systems?).  Have you flown or navigated a ship or worked the controls?

34. Have you had dreams of being put into a dentist like a chair and seeing imagery of unfamiliar places or people or ETs and then questioned?

35. Do you have dreams or memories of being taken on another planet and spending years there?

36. Do you have dreams or memories of being in a war with aliens and you had no weapons and were used to draw out the enemy?

37. Have memories of being in a prison like facility or in a small room with just a bed and a sink that was also a toilet?

38.  Do feel flashes and strong memories coming to you often, that make you feel like you are going crazy?

39.  Have you had memories of a very unusually ship with low ceiling with dark or black walls and it reverberated sounds?

40.  Do you have memories of being an instructor or teacher of small children who you oversaw until they became older?

41.  Do you have dreams or memories of time travel? Of waking up in another time and or planet?

42. Have been diagnosed with radiation? Fibromyalgia or other immune diseases?

43. Do you feel like you have navigated or flown ships and fought wars against aliens?

44. Are you an interface, translator and communicate with extra-terrestrials?

45. do you have flashes and dreams of Nazi’s?

46. Do you feel your genetics have been used in the Super Soldier program?

47. Do you speak, write, and understand galactic languages?

48. Do you remember dying and being put in liquid or machine to bring you back?

49. Do you feel like you are a clone, or that you may have clones of you?

50.  Remember dreams or experiences of being in a large buildings, warehouse, or Shopping Mall?

51.  You do not feel emotions the way others do concerning loss, grief, pain and sadness.  You may release your emotions other ways, such as crying at a movie or even on a commercial.

52. You have many of these symptoms but no missing time in your life and everything seems as if it has been done to you in the dream time but you come back physically exhausted or hurt?

53.   Have feeling that many of these things fit you but no memories?

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Starseed Questionnaire

1. Are intelligent, through may not have had top grades due to learning disabilities i.e. Dyslexia, ADD & AHDA but you have an above average IQ.

2. A nagging suspicion that you are more than your parent’s offspring, that you have some unfulfilled mission, consequence for both yourself and the Earth.
3. Had disgust and perhaps loathing for much of the required and repetitious work in school.
4. Were rebellious in school in that they refused to do homework and may have rejected authority of teachers, or seriously wanted to rebel, but didn’t DARE, usually due to parental pressure or fear.

5. May have experienced early depression and feelings of helplessness. These may have ranged from sadness to utter despair. Suicidal feelings while still in high school or younger are not uncommon in Starseed.

6. Have difficulty in service-oriented jobs, may resist authority in their employment. Prefer being the boss.
7. You as a child & adult have an average body temperature of below 97.6 F [36.4 C] degrees
8. As a child and adult you feel like you have had dreams of Angels, Star Visitors or family from an earlier existence.

9. Have trouble accepting systems they consider broken or ineffective, i.e. political, educational medical, and legal.

10. Frustration with materialistic life style and values. Keeping up with the Jones’s.

11. Have deep empathy for others, yet an intolerance of stupidity.

12. Have psychic or spiritual interest appear fairly young in life on or before teen years.

13. .May have trouble focusing on assigned tasks, may jump around conversations. (Symptoms of ADD).

14. Have strong intuition and had psychic experiences, such as premonitions, seeing angels, ghosts, extra terrestrials out of body experiences, hearing your name called and voices.

15. May have awareness of other dimensions, parallel realities and other planets and have possibly had contact.

16. May be electrically sensitive such as watches not working and street lights going out as you move under them, electrical equipment malfunctioning and lights blowing out.

17. During your dream time you levitate objects, fly, bi-locate and astral travel. You see yourself in alternate realities and receive training and downloads.

18. Being an avid reader or watching videos, youtube and listening CDs & tapes “drinking in “knowledge quicker than the “average” person.

19. Seek truths and the meaning of life. May seek this through religion or spirituality, spiritual groups and books, self-help groups and books

20. Dabbled in drugs, prescription and alcohol to find answers of how they can fit in.

21. Attraction to powerful things in nature, such as thunderstorms, lightning, waterfalls, and the surf.

22. Attraction to ancient symbols.
23. Having a desire to do something to change and improve the world. May be stymied what to do. May have trouble identifying their path.

24. Having an interest or attraction to such fields of science as archaeology, astronomy, or quantum physics.

25. Expectations of great changes upon Earth in the near future.

Targeted Individuals Symptoms

You might have one or a number of these symptoms, and it may mean something, or it may mean nothing. That’s the problem. You’ll need to decide if the things you’re feeling actually seem “normal” or if it seems unusual.

There are many symptoms that go with these that will tell an experienced person whether you’re dealing with an attack, or if something else should be considered. The problem is, finding an experienced person.

These symptoms do not occur in a particular order.

Symptoms of Electronic / Directed Energy Attacks

  1. Chronic fatigue

  2. Sudden changes or blurriness of vision, or eye irritation

  3. A feeling like static or a tingling feeling on your head

  4. The feeling of static around your body

  5. Sudden episodes of faintness or fainting

  6. Waviness in finger and toe nails

  7. Unexplained loss of hair

  8. Nasal Stuffiness

  9. Unexplained muscle and joint pain, often diagnosed as fibromyalgia

  10. Unexplained feelings of annoyance, restlessness, impatience & distraction

  11. Inexplicable memory and word loss

  12. Headaches, and migraine headaches

Symptoms of Psychotronic and Projected Sound Attacks

  1. Hearing strange noises, particularly those no one else hears

  2. Unusual Heart Rhythms, but your heart is fine

  3. False heart attacks – left hand and arm seem to radiate pain. EKG’s show no problems

  4. Depression, inexplicable patterns of anxiety, symptoms of ADD or bi-polar disorder

  5. Disruption in sleep patterns, sleep deprivation, need to take “aids” to sleep

  6. Hearing voices. Those subjected to these psychological operations know how to recognize when someone is suffering from a mental disorder, or if they are being subjected to a standard script or protocol to debilitate them. It’s very easy to recognize. It can rarely be fully stopped, but can often be “disrupted” electronically by jamming the signal.

  7. Media Mirroring. An experience whereby Psyops agents know what a TV show is going to be talking about or what its theme will be and cause the targeted individual to think of that topic. A pattern emerges over and over again whereby victims start to wonder if someone is listening to them, because people on TV seem to always be talking about what they were thinking or talking about before. An interesting illusion. The target is instructed to “think” about these things through subliminal and/or voice to skull communications.

  8. Voice to Skull Communications. This is a military communications that is at the heart of their ability to wirelessly conduct 2 way conversations with an individual. In the past, implants were necessary to facilitate this function. These days, technology indicates that implants are no longer necessary, once your location has been determined through RFID, GPS and cell phone tracking. This is also considered part of Synthetic Telepathy.

There are a great number of other things that occur when these things happen. Again, an experienced individual will know if what you are experiencing is a likely attack.


  • Voice to Skull Communications. This is a military communications that is at the heart of their ability to wirelessly conduct 2 way conversations with an individual. In the past, implants were necessary to facilitate this function. These days, technology indicates that implants are no longer necessary, once your location has been determined through RFID, GPS and cell phone tracking. This is also considered part of Synthetic Telepathy.

There are a great number of other things that occur when these things happen. Again, an experienced individual will know if what you are experiencing is a likely attack.

If you are under surveillance, you are being stalked. It’s simply given a different name.

And, since you have no idea who is doing it to you, or why, it comes under the category of what used to be discussed – the perfect crime – doing something to someone you don’t know in a random act, or an act that couldn’t possibly be traced by association or circumstantial evidence. Since most of these Psyops agents act under the veil of the authority of the law (in these unconstitutional, criminal acts), they truly operate as if they are above the law, because they are, thanks to FISA and other laws the Democratic and Republican officials have legislated while we were watching two years of redundant presidential campaigning so we wouldn’t notice.

People being stalked or surveilled – by the government or other people – begin to notice patterns. People following them, cars, faces, odd incidents. Mail and email are tampered with, phone services seem to be inconsistent, and you never get important calls from people who said they tried to call.

Even worse, these agents do things to prevent targeted individuals from receiving proper medical care, even though they pay for it, proper dental car, even though they pay for it, and are even denied proper medical care for their pets.

Targeted individuals – victims – are often accosted in public in ways that can’t be reported. People bumping into them for no reason, and obviously did it on purpose. Trying to work and being hit with electronic attacks. You can not possibly imagine, what people are put through by professional Psyops agents contracted by the Department of Defense and Intelligence Agencies to destroy people’s lives.

This, again, is one of those things I wish there was any doubt about. There simply is not. It’s sick.

The Democrats and Republicans and the members of the Council on Foreign Relations all approve of the full development of these weapons, and their deployment. I can assure you, the deployment of these weapons is rapidly increasing, based on the number of reports from victims around the world.

I have over 500 affidavits on my computer from victims in the United States, and am in contact with thousands more.

Please be sure to read the “Executive Summary of the Church Committee”   and “What You Can Do” on the Psychotronics menu.

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Reptilian Encounter Questionnaire 

1.How did your encounter take place, such as, abduction, wrong place at the wrong time, right place at the right time, something by chance, etc?

2.How many Reptilians were present?

3.Did they seem to be male/female or really could not tell?

4.Were you near a body of water, a cave, or a historical site?

5.If there was more than one did anyone of them appear to be in a leadership role?

6.Did they all look the same or were there noticeable differences?

7.Before your encounter had you ever considered other intelligence may exist?

8.Has this happened more than once? If so how many times?

9.Was this a frightening experience, perhaps startled, something positive, or something else? Please describe.

10.Sometimes people describe this type of encounter as a shape shifting being. Did you experience this phenomenon? If so please describe

11.Did it have an chameleon type behavior such as appearing as the reptilian being than changing to something else or vice a versa?

12.Did the encounter feel as if it was in our environmental perception or did you feel pulled out of your environment?

13.Did you notice any unusual sounds during your encounter? If so please describe what they were. 

14.Did you notice any unusual smell during your encounter> If so please describe the scent.

15.Did you notice any type of writing anywhere? If yes please describe it.

16.Did you only notice only an adult type reptilian being or were their children?

17.Was anyone else with you? If so how many witnesses?

18.Was there a type of craft (UFO) involved? If so please describe it.

19.If there was a craft, were you inside it? If so describe what you saw.

20.Did you get a sense of where they were from?

21.After the encounter what did you think about what just took place?

22.Do you feel like what you recall is a real memory?”

23.Have you talked to others about this experience or were you concerned about how others would react?

24.Would you want to experience this encounter again?

25.Did the encounter happen in a specific area such as the woods, a public place, at home, etc?

These next questions will focus on the anatomy or what you recall about it concerning the reptilians.

26.How tall was the reptilian or reptilians if more than one?

27.Did they wear any type of clothing? If yes please describe

28.What was the skin texture like? Scaly, smooth like a salamander, more like a snake, large scales, small scales, shape of scales, diamond like, half circle, or something else? Please be as detailed as possible.

29.Did you feel the skin? If yes, was it slimy, oily, dry, etc.

30.What was the color or colors of the skin?

31.If more than one color are the other colors located in any particular region of the body such as around eyes, the mouth, the head etc

32.What was the shape of the head like? Round, oval, elongated, disproportionate in size, etc.

33.Are there any protrusions on the head? If yes describe what they look line and where they are located.

34.How are the eyes shaped and positioned on the head

35.What color/colors are the eyes?

36.Do they have ears? If yes describe what they look like.

37.How is the nose shaped?

38.Describe the mouth region including lips if they have any.

39.Did they have a tail?

40.Are the arms and legs proportioned to the body or longer/shorter?

41.How many fingers do they have and how would you describe the shape, such as like human hands, pointed with/without claws, etc?

42.Please describe the feet if you seen them.

43.How was their reaction towards you? Be specific, was it hostile, friendly, indifferent, etc

44.Did they seem to have any apprehension towards you?

45.Did they react to you as if you were familiar to them, an accidental encounter, something else?

46.Did they try to communicate with you? If so, how? Such as verbally with words, a telepathic type communication, with images, etc?

47.Did reptilians feel familiar to you?

48.Did you attempt to communicate with them?

49.Did the experience scare you?

50.Were you concerned about your safety?

51.Did you find them revolting, left you curious, you felt quite comfortable in their presence, or something else?

52.Please us this space to write anything else you would like to say about how you felt about the whole encounter?

53. Have you ever seen these reptilian beings in a dream?

54.Have you ever had a disaster type dream? If so please describe?

55.Are you interested in other paranormal subjects? If so what kind?

56.Do you have pets that were present during your encounter? If so what was their reaction?

57.When was your last encounter?

Have you had any other types of paranormal experiences? With other beings? if so with who?

53.A Grey?

54.A Mantis type being?

55.A Light being?

56.feline or mammalian?

57.Military? If so what country?

58.Anphibian or aquatic?

59. blue, green or purple beings short or tall ie., Arcturian & Andromedan?

60. Human, Nordic ETs? 



  1. You have a fear of being alone in the dark, of sleeping alone; nightmares (especially of rape, pursuit, threat, entrapment, blood); night terrors?

  2. Did other members of your family or friends who molested or assaulted you as a child?

  3. You have a poor or distorted body image, not at home in your body and extreme lack of self-image?  Unknowingly manipulating your body size to avoid sexual attention. Have eating disorders, bulimia, and anorexia? 

  4. You wear a lot of clothing, even in summer; baggy clothes; failure to remove clothing even when appropriate to do so (while swimming, bathing, sleeping); extreme requirement for privacy when using bathroom?

  5. You dress sexy and where revealing clothing?  

  6. You avoid mirrors (connected with invisibility, shame/self-esteem issues; distorted perceptions of face or body, DID)? Your also feel your being watched?

  7. Sexual issues: sex feels dirty aversion to being touched; strong aversion to particular sex acts; feeling betrayed by one's body; trouble integrating sexuality and emotionality?

  8. You are confused about affection/ sex/ dominance/ aggression/ violence, having to be under someone’s power or be submissive in sexual arena?

  9. You have erotic response to abuse, anger, and may have sexual fantasies of dominance/ real rape (results in guilt and confusion? Pain verses Pleasure?

  10. You have a sex with strangers due to your inability to have sex in intimate relationship (conflict between sex and caring); prostitute, stripper, sex symbol President’s model (Marilyn Monroe), porn actress; sexual or sexting on video or internet? sexual acting out to meet anger or revenge needs; sexual addiction?

  11. You have a pattern of ambivalent or intensely conflictual relationships (abuse is familiar; also, in true intimacy, issues are more likely to surface; (especially sex and relationship issues) you have problem relationships, avoidance; shutdown; crying after orgasm; pursuit feels like violation; sexualizing of all meaningful relationships; Partner of survivor often suffers? This can be a consequence of Post-Incest or SRA Syndrome?

  12. You are in denial and repress memories, minimizing them or thinking they are just fantasy? 

  13. You have an inappropriate negative reaction to a person, place, or event; which may occur as dreams, or sensory flashes (a brief image of a threatening abuse event or identifying an abuser?

  14. You may have had addictions, eating disorders, drug/alcohol overuse/abuse/or total abstinence; compulsive behaviors (including busyness)?

  15. Need to be invisible, perfect, or perfectly bad?

  16. You may have done self-injury (cutting, burning, etc.) (physical pain is manageable) (th, an addictive pattern); self-destructiveness, drugs and alcohol?

  17. You have Phobias, panic, anxiety? Phobias or fear of snakes, spiders, dark small places, confinement, other animals, knives, guns, strobe lights, water in your face and other unusual fears and men with beards or old men?

  18. You have PTSD symptoms, including shock or shutdown in crisis (stressful situation always = crisis), psychic numbing. hysterical symptoms: physical pain, paralysis, numbness associated with memory, emotion, anger or extreme fear?

  19. You have stress-related diseases: gastrointestinal problems, GYN disorders (including spontaneous vaginal infections); headaches; arthritis/joint pain; fibromyalgia also internal scarring?

  20. You have an aversion to doctors esp. gynecologists & dentists? Aversion to dentist chairs?

  21. In your childhood you did hiding, hanging on, cowering in corners and as an adult you exhibited nervousness over being watched or surprised; feeling watched; startled response; hypervigilance?

  22. You felt the need to be invisible, not to be noticed in a crowd?

  23. You have had suicidal thoughts, attempts, obsession (including passive suicide)?

  24. You have had depression (sometimes paralyzing); seemingly baseless but had crying; sadness?

  25. You have anger issues: inability to recognize, own or express anger; rage; fear of rage (actual or imagined); constant anger; misdirected anger, intense hostility toward entire gender or ethnic group (race) of the perpetrator?

  26. You may have control, power, territoriality issues; fear of losing control; obsessive/compulsive behaviors (attempts to control things that do not matter, just to control something!)?

  27. You have guilt/ shame/ low self-esteem/ feeling worthless/ high appreciation of small favors by others?

  28. You have a pattern of being a victim (victimizing oneself after being victimized by others), especially sexually; no sense of own power or right to set limits or say no?

  29. You may have a pattern of relationships with much older or more powerful narcissistic with a sense of entitlement; (adult sexual violence, including sexual exploitation and rape? Or you may have revictimization by others including bosses or professionals?

  30. You may have abandonment issues; desire for relationships with no separateness; avoidance/fear of intimacy?

  31. You have dissociation: blocking out some period of early years especially childhood, also blocking out a specific person, place, event; identities (incl. women imagining self to be male, = not a victim); Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) (was MPD)?

  32. You have the feeling you are carrying an awful secret; urge to tell/ fear of its being revealed; certainty that no-one would listen. Being generally secretive. Feeling marked (the scarlet letter)?

  33. You have a feeling your crazy; feeling different; feeling oneself to be unreal and everyone else to be real?

  34. Fear of being alone in the dark, of sleeping alone; nightmares (especially of rape, pursuit, threat, entrapment, blood); night terrors?

  35.  Swallowing and gagging sensitivity; repugnance to water on face when bathing or swimming (suffocation feelings)? & 

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